Addict Poem by Becca Bell

It's like a terrible addiction
I can't get enough
A tidal wave of attention
It swept me up
Why do I like it so much?
After it continuously hurts
I don't know
I'll never know
My mismatched feelings of love, loss, regret
I've become my own nightmare
One I cannot get past
One I can never forget
You're the monster on my back
The drug that doesn't stay away
As much as I try, I fail
It's too hard
I want to be wanted
But at the end of the day
All I feel is my heart inside my aching chest