Addicted Poem by bayla burnett

ADDICTED
why?
why would you make me fall in love with you...
why would you lay down and be my first man to have sex with..
why would you look me in my eyes and tell me you love me when all you wanna do is hurt me... how could you do such a thing to little ole me when all i asked is for you to never break my heart?
I asked never leave me alone please...
How could you look another girl in the eyes and not think of me?
Was it fake?
I feel lost without you...
but i hate you so much i still love you and beg you for my heart back but you wont give it back. I want to be strong and stand up for myself but you just beg for me back i forgive but i never forget i cant look at you the same i don't wanna call you my first love anymore i hate when you try and hold my hand i hate when you say i love you it makes me sick but yet im so weak when you come around i feel like a puddle of water... i get so angry with myself sometimes i feel like i just wanna give up and its al because of you...you took my heart dropped it...it cracked a little you picked it up again and dropped it...it split in half you picked it up once again and left it lay in the cold dark while you walked away
and to think i just wanted to be loved?
My heart wil never be the same