Addiction Excuses Poem by Dakota Ellerton

Over come with emotions,
I see no other options.
I cling hard to addiction,
praying for a better tomorrow.
How far will I drink myself this time?
In the depths of my heart,
such a fate would only be fitting.
If only once more,
I'll let myself fall.
I'd cry whiskey tears,
praying to someone who no longer exhists.
I'd slip out while everyones asleep,
I'd look upon their faces for the last time.
The guilt is consuming my time.
A hangmans knot isn't hard at all,
I've had a lot of practice.
I pulls the keys from my pocket,
and unlock the garage door.
Over and over,
the same song plays,
'You deserve much better than me.'
I grab my childhood chair,
it's worn out, and as lonely as I.
I climb to the top,
looking through the noose.
Is this going to save everyone?
I tie it around my neck.
Is this going to make it better?
What will everyone do without...
I slipped in mid thought.
I'm too intoxicated to feel anything anyways.
I close my eyes to see only darkness.
Blood drips down my face.
As the moonlight shines in on my lifeless body,
a note is insight.
'You deserve much better than me'.