Afraid Of Loniness Poem by Felicia Kekana

sin slithered into my soul like the sun welcomed by the another day in december.
I allowed  sun rays to burn through my bathed skin third degree burns appeared like daisies brightly blooming on september the first, my thirst remained un quenched as i longed for that kiss just for you to touch me allow me to feel your skin lay against my chest and let our souls do the rest you see i let my imagination play games on me like hop scotch on a pre school play ground like, monopoly on the living room floor..my heart was as open as the dart board that was hung up on your bedroom door.
Your voice, the sound of your voice made the little voice within me speak quitley you silenced me, the way you walk seemed to amaze me although you always walked away from me never towards me, your smile concluded every description of happiness but see I am just afraid of the emptiness my bedroom holds as i enter my being into an empty space that's only filled objects that do not have an option to leave, the mirror never speaks back my pillow only absorbs the my tears unwillingly as my blanket covers me.I am afraid of the loneliness i fear the truth that stays hidden in my closet and is only released when i open it, I am afraid of being left with myself the only evidence i have if my existence is the clock that hangs on the wall that keeps all my secrets and witnesses all my sadness, the madness got me repeating my self backwards im afraid of being left alone with just me, see there i go again repeating things i have already said there's just too much rubbish in my head i think I am gonna lose it because you see nothing hurts more than the feeling of being unwanted, its not your fault i understand that you were only trying to be honest, yes your honesty i respect it and now i did not say i accept it, because you see part of me wants murder you but the other part wants to pray for you because your the one who is afraid of the loneliness your heart is the emptiest and although it kills my heart to say this but perhaps you should keep the happiness