Alienation..... Poem by RIC BASTASA

i am going to places
looking for something
at night when everything
is cold and silent
in that far place where i
am in
i think somehow that it is
is not a place that i am looking for
it could be someone
to warm my side
i dislike the thought of greed
for i have already some
of them
it dawns upon me
the sad truth that i am looking for
myself
someone that i have not really found
despite the years
because i have been blind
and deaf
and mute

do i know that we are together
in one body and
yet so
strangely
alienated

with what we really want
to have and to even
just touch?