Alone Poem by Cece Winters

Why do I feel so alone when I have a big circle of support around me?
When I'm with them I feel alright, I feel full, like everything is the way it's supposed to be.
But when I'm alone and it's time to spend time with other people in life, that's when I feel so alone.
Questioning everything. Doubting everything. Wondering about people. Having my suspicions because the evidence was there for these thoughts to even occur.
Then I become not myself and I don't know how to control it. Or how to get out of this.
I begin to treat people differently because I feel they deserve it for the things they have done.