Aloneness Poem by Lin Kah Mun

Since our encounter
I never felt lonely as I had before
When
You turn you back and walk away
I pretend I'm okay
inside of me struggling for release
I have forgotten the routine I do
Before our encounter
I love you
in the meantime
I hate you
It was hard for me to forget you
It hurt to be so close and so far
In this intersection path
I'm lonely
inside of me yearning for release
I'm blaming you for this pain
but
I knew that my foolish decision
Had me to lose you
I was so foolish
to believe your words
Now
I give up on you
I have forgotten
what I used to do
before I met you
We never meant to belong
I belong to nobody
At the very beginning
I refused to accept this fact
and cause these unnecessary agony
to both of us
I am alone from the beginning till
The End