Apathy Poem by C.T. Massie

I'm feeling apathetic
I want to get to the top
I want to bring them with me
but not everyone's up for the ride
they take my doubts and make them bonafide

I try to ignore them, but I'm not sure if I'll go
all the way to the top
feeling like my hopes are a prop
like everyone just looks and laughs

I'm tempted to worry about the optics
But I stay focused on being a top pick
Everybody's telling me, 'Just go enjoy life'

All that sounds good
But I don't wanna grow up and live that unemployed life
I'm just trying to settle down,
Have a couple of kids and a beautiful wife

It's like I work every day
It's taking a toll, my brain in decay
Doing all this work just trying to find my way

I'm just praying I'm the chosen one
The needle in the hay
And I'm doing it all for myself
Not in it for the pay

My path might be different
But I'm just trying to find my way
I just want to grow up and continue to play

But it's up to God
So I just Hope and pray