'As I Love You' Poem by Ethan Grimes

How has it come to this,
When this last month was such bliss.
The tears that i have cried,
That have never before left my eyes.

The state of mind is strange,
As of these last few days.
Yet i am just concerned,
My love it seems adjourned.

This was not my choice or wish,
The feeling of the last kiss.
Lingers in my mind,
The past is left behind.

My words it seems are power,
My mind has been devoured.
By many intrusive thoughts,
That left behind some spots.

The spots and then the question,
The one I never mention,
How could I be loved,
If i didn't love myself,
My emotions recently surfaced,
Have been put back on a shelf.

Myself I need to hide,
No one quite by my side.
I'm sorry for what I've done,
I know that I have lied.

Lied to myself again,
"I think we should just be friends."
After now i do not know,
Where I should go.

"As I love you."
Was my response of choice.
I guess that now we're through,
I should've lost my voice.