Attitudinal Avalanche Poem by A. Jayaprakash Jayaprakash Panicker

Much water had flown down the bridge of my sighs-
The very breath-taking decisions that I once took—
Before I came to understand that there were ways
Severer and narrower than what I had once been to.

How many times I turned against me and my likes
How many days I abused my very self and senses
What all ways I had had to keep my days stick to me
No idea where from I got this fire that burns in me.

Everyone is an open heath with no borders or lines
But somewhere there in it is a chartered domain
The finding of which falls at an opportune moment,
That we happen to overlook in our mundane ways.

In a flippant attitudinal avalanche of the immediate
Men of much higher stature stand at times to lose.
All those so called virtues, wills and incarnations
Come crashing like cards of countless calculations.

Some stumble at the very sight and abandon the whole
Some fervently go gathering even the dust together,
Yet another set gets jolted at the futility, and perishes.
A very few realize that they are doing their due roles.

It is easy to perish; it’s easier to make others perish too.
When bricks of our fortitude threaten us with a caving in,
We find nothing or none in or around us worth the salt
But what we see is a zeroing in into our very own space.

In such a zeroing in was I met with a pretty communion.
Thereafter it has been a kind of predetermined affair
With the self and senses I once abused for ages and ages.
It is the love for my love and the love for my very love-life.


Jayaprakash Jayaprakash Panicker