Away

Sitting here wondering, again
Why did I leave my heart wide open again?
Every breath leaves me with pain
Again, I say once more: 'I won't let myself love anymore'
when you said you were going to leave
my head filled up with distorted memories,
I cant breathe
Holding my breath just to see if I could wake up from this dream
I want to, want to run away
From this so called love that in exchange,
gives me kisses filled with unbearable pain
but i want to, want to fade away
like the light, when the darkness tells the sun to go away
I want to, want to be erased
So my emotions wont find me and tear this fragile display
I just want my tears to go away
Remembering the laughs that we shared
talking on the phone till way past two
the touches that only brought me closer to you
all the words that sunk into you
Like 'living with out you i could not do'
wish i could catch them all
Fill them in a Fragile glass locket
Nobody will be able to touch it
and between my hands i will crush it
Not remembering you
Its the best thing to do
Leave me here and watch me
with my cut up, blood stained hands disappear.
I want to, want to run away
From this so called love that in exchange
Gives me kisses filled with unbearable pain
But i want to, want to run away.
Like the light when the darkness tells the sun to go away
I want to, want to be erased
So my emotions wont find me and tear this fragile display
I just want the tears to go away


(I made this one up)