Many times, I pretend I'm okay
Smiling at friends so they go away
Maybe I'm two-faced, maybe I'm not
But my feelings and thoughts are all that I've got
Maybe I can fix myself
But not if I keep turning away help
I need someone who cares to stay
Who promises love that isn't going away
I wake up each morning, but do not move for fear
That I'll face the thoughts which linger here
The ones with screaming, punching, and demeaning words
With each piercing scream, my sanity hurts
But, although I imagine these awful crimes
I have lived through the worst, at least a few times
Everyone thinks I'm lazy, but I'm fine
I just need to wait for my life to align
To the stars that, I swear, determine my fate
I just hope to God that it won't be too late
Demons in my head which force me to write
Yet angels in my life who tell me to fight
The battle is on, it'll be here for awhile
My only defense is to try and smile
I cry myself to sleep at night
But only because I miss the light
I need a place where I can be myself
Not hide my emotions high on a shelf
My angels are people who are dear to me
But what should scare them the most is what they can't see
My life looks alright if you look skin-deep
But no one knows how often I let the wounds seep
My life is a prison I can't seem to break through
My tears are a story I cannot tell you
Life is a battle, all on its own
Because love is a weakness I'd rather not show
Sometimes you need to write your demons away
Because, if you don't, they will happily stay
I got from demons to futures in the blink of an eye
Maybe because, deep down? I do want to try
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem