Bedroom Window Poem by Randy McClave

I wish only to hold you forever,
And never would I let you go,
That is why I keep my doors opened,
And also my bedroom window;
I am invisible to everyone,
I feel as though that I do not exist,
I wish from my window I could escape,
This loneliness and sadness I can't resist;
But, if only I could hold you forever,
Then in this world happily I would stay,
I would then close my doors and my window,
I would be happy to greet a brand new day.

If only our breaths were just one,
Then my doors and window would be closed,
I would need no place to escape to,
Happy dreams I would have as we dozed;
Your head would be lying upon my chest,
And my arm would be holding your body next to mine,
I would find the contentment for which I have searched,
Then from loneliness and sadness I would resign;
I leave my doors and my bedroom window opened,
And on my bed alone there I do lie,
If only I could hold your forever,
Then in this bed of mine I wouldn't be afraid to die.

If only I could lie next to you,
I know that all of my problems wouldn't disappear,
But I know that they would be easier for me to accept,
And I know I wouldn't have any more fear;
I leave my doors and my bedroom window opened,
So from my life and my reality I can escape,
I have no one here to care or to love me,
So for warmth around my body my covers I drape;
I just wish only to hold you,
And I would hold you forever until the end,
Then my life it would end in happiness,
And only you would know the last words that I penned.

Randy L. McClave