Before The Wild Winds Poem by Leria Hawkins

Before the Wild Winds
Date: March 16,2012

I wish that I had met you far from your becoming
In those tender moments stilled by innocence
Long before your winds blew wild
And carnal mange rained down to claim your soul

Was there softness on your pillow then?
Or did you dream in a rage of sex and lustful intent
I can only surmise of your passions back then
Oh, how I adored you…in full fancy of my own suppositions

But I ask you now…was there peace in the shallows of that world
Or was your history contrived to set you on another path
Twisted around such ironclad authority that you rebelled
Running full-fledged into the arms of decay

Were you led by the nose to the place where you became
Or did you seek it…finding your way via a path of secrets
Did life events drive you…
A cataclysm that sent you screaming from loves' door…?

I cannot fathom what turned you from a fair flavored child
Leaving your shame to stagnate in a pool of indifference
Or what transformed the spring pup to cold blooded wolf
Was there a misfire of constitution…an override of compassion?

I long to know what bore in you such cool calculation
Where the search for fire and flesh is your only master
And matters of the heart fall deaf upon your door
So sad, to have grown into a life of such apathy

It seems to me, a waste to bleed with such fury
While failing to understand the true meaning of its origin
And a tragedy to flame with undying beauty
Yet find it impossible to grab hold with both hands

When I came here to touch you…to love you
I did not know that you were lost, buried in a trove of secrets
Your heart forever deafened to the whispers of love
I did not see our tide, as a briny sea of oppression

I came to walk these shores in awe of what lay ahead
Where whispers of surf on sand, sings lullabies into a velvet night
I came to feel the sensation of fire beneath my breast
And I believed, the rhythm of my heart could rejoice 'neath your persuasion

I regret that I could not touch, or taste, or know the whole of you
Seems fate stepped in to splinter the simplicity of what we were
And sent us spiraling into the arms of no turning back
We came so far, we came so very, very far…only to have lost our way

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