Biggest Loss Indeed 5.27.2009 Poem by Margaret Alice

Stuck in limbo, can’t get up, the spark
is gone, chills and fevers all I know,
doctor says virus infection, nods
her head, back to bed, burning
perspiration

I have nothing left, read my books, Von
Däniken, Don Camillo, never feel so
terrible for so long, the world has
stopped, flames living in my
head

Tried to work, had to put all away, being
vertical is not on, can’t hold up my head,
how to survive feeling ill, to me it is
unbearable, anxious about
everything

Will I ever feel energetic and excited again,
when will strength return, when will I stop
to burn and freeze under strangling
blankets, feeling tired and
discouraged

Give me strength or let me die in peace;
stuck in limbo I know no happiness,
too tired to dream up fantasies –
the biggest loss
indeed…