I can’t think nor breathe,
I know what he said, I’m so naïve.
I can’t move or talk,
I’m in utter disbelief, in severe shock.
I’ve never experienced such relentless pain,
There are no words to describe it, no way to explain.
You think you know someone like the back of your hand,
But they have caught you off guard, you can barely stand.
I didn’t want to accept it I couldn’t help but deny,
Does this mean my relationship was all one big lie?
I keep waiting for someone to wake me up; it must be a nightmare,
But there is no joke; nothing could save me, not even a prayer.
The worst feeling is loving the person that you hate,
I know time heals all wounds but I don’t know if I can wait.
I must have been blinded by love,
I’ve been hurt by someone I thought the world of.
How could someone so close be so far?
How can I not recognize the person you are?
I confront him and wait for his explanation,
But there’s not one thing he could say to help fix the situation.
I see his eyes getting swallowed by tears,
I’m starting to melt, this is what I feared.
Those once bright brown eyes are now so dim,
I know he’s waiting for my decision but it seems grim…
Then I realize I can’t give in,
I see the potential for harm that he carries within.
I know for now I may wither and cry.
But I will overcome this broken heart, or al least I will try.
(July 7th 2009)
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.