Blurred Memories Poem by Elsa Bear

it's 5am and i'm still awake.
you're in my head again,
invading my thoughts and stealing my peace of mind.
i'm trying to sleep but i can hear you,
your voice,
your laugh.
i can see you smiling at me,
looking at me the way you used to.
you used to smile at me so often,
across the room,
you'd smile over conversations,
a smile only for me.
and now you smile for her.
my head feels so blurry,
you stop me sleeping,
from moving on,
you keep me awake with memories.