Borders To Insanity Poem by Eman Hussain

I am lost with no track
Should i stay or start to pack?
I am lonely with pain in my heart
Please release me from the suffering part

I know I'm wise and strong in heart;
It's not helping my weak human part
Triumph and torture will never stop
Even if i grow and reach the top

Guilt is killing me from the inside
I feel I'm nothing, no dignity or pride
I was taught not to share my feelings
So i didn't except with my demons

They tell me: Do mistakes and be wrong
I don't like their ways, but with them i belong
They only know my deepest fears
sometimes they laugh when I'm in tears

They say to me that I'm no body
Only if I brutally hurt somebody
People won't bother me and will fear me
They will be good and won't get near me

I can't do that, It's just not me
Now my demons are threatening me
Please, I just need a helping hand to reach me
To pull me out of this despair and to free me

I am lost with no track
Should i stay or start to pack?
I made it through all this time
Maybe i won't cross the insanity line...