Abyss Poem by Eman Hussain

I do not wish to be in this life anymore
All i urged for is to be something real
Tired of pressure, misfortune and bore
A new discovery that i shall reveal

The burden i carry shall never be shared
I cannot be open; I locked the door
Though i gave up on life, I am still scared
Not the end i desire; Dead on the floor

How can it be? why have i fallen so hard?
I cannot stand this pain and confusion
Therefor, I went out to the back yard
To get some fresh air and find a solution

Staring at the cold white moon, soothing
Trying to rationalize everything i faced
Cold breeze blows, even nature is abusing
I shiver and cry, I will not be saved

Why God has chosen me to be alone?
Never had some one who would love me
Should accept this? be solid as a stone?
Maybe i chose this path; I will blame me

suddenly i hear this voice shouting and calling
Wake up human, Fruit of the being tree
You either correct the flaws or start falling
I put my hands on my ears; I want to flee

Now i hear the husky voice speaking in my mind
Youngling, Do not fear my loudness and harshness
Open your third eye, try a bit harder just to find
what you cannot see in reality's hecticness

I am not what you are looking for, Said to voice
I am a human being, Isolated in his cell
At least this time i will make the choice
I shall go back to my cell and i shall lock it well...