But What Are We To Do? Poem by Diego Adrian Manriquez

Feburary is my most depressing month,
I try to look forward but I'm afraid of where I'll go so I'll look down,
I get caught up in memories of us,
The good,
The bad,
Sometimes I really wish I could have not turned out this way,
Now often I'm screaming your name randomly and you're the only thing that come to my head,
I look around and see you everywhere,
You left your taste in my mouth and now I can't begin to explain,
Explain the mental state you left me in,
I shouldn't be the one hurt,
I shouldn't be the one confused,
I shouldn't have been the one that was misused,
It all happens but what are we to do?
Sit still in the corner of my room waiting to hear from you,
And I get nothing not even a 'How have you been? ',
Even if I had to lie to you it'd make me happy knowing you cared,
Even if you had nothing to say to me I want to know that you're there,
But even though my life isn't perfect,
It was a lot better when you were with me and I wasn't alone,
I've got to be happy with what I got,
And just learn to let go of what I can't have.