Can'T Be Forgiven Poem by Koushik Goswami

An hour ago, I killed a man and asked God for forgiveness,
God as usual was silent, I thought he accepted,
I walked out and spent the rest of the day,
Doing casual chores, not thinking about it in anyway,

At night I was woke up by voice so null,
Think it was God but I couldn't figure it out,
The voice then spoke in some hollow tone,
Well my son, it has been many times now,

You asked me for forgiveness and I need not forgive you,
As a father to every living being, I have always loved you,
And the man you killed today, was also one of my loving sons,
I am grieved and pained, but how can I punish since you too are my own?

I am disappointed my dear, now you know me only when you fear,
I have watched you all through life, where is the love that I deserve?
The one you hurt can only forgive you, so don't ask me again,
(I thought) Wasn't it in vain to ask forgiveness of a dead man?

Now, I know I was never forgiven and think I can never be,
This feeling that's hurting so much, will be a burden forever on me!