Cold Piano...Breathing Guitar Poem by Andrus Cassian

How can I slip away unnoticed and unheard
Blend in with the environment, remain undetected, make a clean escape
out of the room into the heavy air of the universe outside
for the torment of my youth, there, she's seeping in again
The illusions, they're onto me
The thoughts, they're planning to dissect me
They captured my heart for a sick interrogation
They brought in the warden: Melissa...Melissa...
Is it false I believed I shrouded her
in a cloud of misery so I could push her from me
Honestly thought I cast her out to sea, expunged her from me
declared she would be the last thing affecting me
The illusions, they've caught up to me
How long have I had my spiritual eyes sealed shut
I've caught myself in a rut
the doubt sinks in to take her place
the place of the world I've come to love
the place of the world I've come to despise
Oh no, oh no
GET OUT OF MY HEAD! !
Peace of mind, where is my peace of mind
I thought I could finally breathe in, take in and have peace within
Where is my peace of mind
Maybe no one will notice how crazy I seem
Maybe no one will notice I'm drowning
in scripted clouds inside my head
If I keep a steel gaze, walk around in a haze
but I stand here in an unfamiliar space
throwing rocks in a weary place
choking on the air from the smoke, smell of fire
I didn't make
picturing every stone as a problem to toss away
A stoic expression spreads upon my face
as the Earth predicts my future while I go nowhere
stop and stare as the cotton candy clouds
match the color of my painted mind
What month is it
Melissa...
She dragged me from my September into a cold December
casting a spell to send my eyes into a misty blue
pools of rain clouds with unknown reasons
as plain as the rains crash away and
the echo of wedding bells turning white
into a mix of gray and all out happiness
The guitar, splashed with a hint of mint
breathing in the sorrow of a cold piano
Or is it just an illusion
GET OUT OF MY MIND! ! !
Melissa...get off my mind...
The illusions...their conspiring...
Melissa...please just stay away...
Melissa...just stay away...
I can only scream
not aware one day the music will...