Confession (Jan.2008) Poem by Tina Dang

I have this feeling that weighs heavily on my chest.
It keeps bothering me and won’t go away, I can’t lay it to rest.
All this time, I’ve been trying to keep my emotions suppressed.
Now you came along and saw right through me and was not impressed.
As realistic as I claim to be the more pretentious you see in me.
Playing a role I can‘t live up to, I don’t cheat nor do I lie, I prefer monogamy.
You then look at me, thinking it’s unbelievable of what I had just said.
But why act so interested? In the end you normally like to be mislead.
Girls like you hardly notice nice genuine people like me, only bad guys.
When you do it’s too late, mistake was made, your happiness has been compromised.
Now that you’re heartbroken, you turn to me, can’t find the strength within.
Feeling yourself so vulnerable, its like signing your soul to the devil, committing a sin.
But don’t be afraid, I have no hidden agenda, it’s only me you’re opening up to.
I haven’t given you any reason to doubt, no signs of infidelity or of me being untrue.
I make you my first priority, there is no sense in choosing but if I must it’s you I choose.
Without a doubt, I know I couldn’t bare life itself, if it’s you I lose