Contrary Poem by Kandayia Ali

Contrary



All the times I thought that I was your 'Queen; ' in the end, all you found yourself calling me was a 'hoe.' All the times I thought you were trying to hold on; you were building up your strength, to let me go. I thought you trusted me, but I only disgusted you. You said that you couldn't live without me, but each day we around each other you prove to me that statement wasn't quite true.

I wanted you, but, to my surprise, you had a different look in your eyes, a different feel in your heart; that you claimed wasn't there from the start. Over the years it turned from suga' to shhh; and all you say to me, is that I caused all of it. See, you loved me cause i thought differently; now, I'm crazy because I think like that. You go out of your way now, to hurt me purposely- because you seriously think, I don't notice how you act. You make everything a challenge; a war- even when we shouldn't even be the ones in combat.

At first, you didn't deserve me, saying you're not worthy of such a blessing. Now, you say that I don't deserve you and that when you hit me, its only teaching me a lesson. I fell, and you caught, you sold, and I bought- but who would have thought I would have fallen for such a man? Any man that takes out his insecurities with his hands; I was your all, you're fire, your desire, and the one you admired. Now, you're telling me my time is up, and our 'best by date' has expired. We sexed all the time, to just there to keep each other company in bed. From being able to read each other's body language, to not knowing what the hell was going on in either one of our heads.

My thing is, through it all, I never flinched, never blinked, never stop to think that we would end up being enemies, fighting for the same thing- sincerity... So, contrary to what I thought you were,
you ARE what you are, and sadly there is no cure. I preach love, you want hate, I want a family, you want to separate. Now, we have come to the conclusion, that the illusion is fading, and almost gone. Contrary to your thoughts of me coming back to your silly azz. I'm moving on...

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