Driven Poem by Kandayia Ali

This time around, I'm longing for things to be different for me; I'm finding it hard to open my eyes wide enough to see, the do's and don'ts of the love game, seems all the same. Together, then apart, then move on, don't know who's really to blame. Why is it that shortly after the night we consummated our relationship, we soon took the final steps before consecrating our relationship?

I have heard it all before, but this time, I want more...

I desire to have the love I feel is due, to me, not settling for less than happiness. I want to be able to look into someone's eyes, and feel truly blessed.Having the mere thought of him near me, take away my breath... But I know that this phase that I'm going through now, is just a test; to see if I'm ready to love, ready to venture into the depths, and take what's rightfully mine. To not search, just allow things to take their time to progress into something that's for....

Me...

To share with someone, all of my heart, each day I plea... For the next one, to be the best one... The only one, that I will ever need,
that will give me his all, and my hunger for love, feed... Giving me the amount needed to balance out this sanity and at the same time my insane call out to love; asking why can't I have the one I want? Why must I live each day, while you taunt! Taking my mind on rides of visualizations, my body cannot have at this time?

When can He be mine?

When can I say 'This is the one? '

Why does my future seem over before it has begun?

When is My silver lining, around this dark cloud, gonna come? Because this in and out of love shhh ain't fun! Can't say when it's gonna happen, but what is meant for me, will be given... And it is because of this mere thought, resting in the back of my mind, I'm aimlessly, in the direction of love, again, driven....