Could You Poem by Ashley Marie

Anger, hurt, betrayal, loneliness, and sadness is the main emotions my heart knows. They say all wounds heal over time but, I've come to realize that's just all talk. When your heart is literally dead and ripped from your chest the easiest thing to do is cry. Crying doesn't ease the pain but, its the easiest way to let it out when your mouth can't say the words. Now tell me this:

Could you look me in my eyes and see the pain I hide behind the smiles and laughs? Could you look inside my soul and see how heavy my heart is but, how empty inside I am at the same time? Could you read my eyes and tell I cry four days and nights a week? Could you read my mind and tell I lost it? Could you feel my spirit and tell my heart died?

My mind is gone to another planet. My soul is trapped. My joy is buried ten feet below. My spirit is slowly bleeding. Despite all that I fight to hide it all. Some say I'm stuck in my ways but, if y'all really knew the things that got me like this then, y'all heart a probably break. So answer this:

Could you look me in my eyes and see the pain I hide behind the smiles and laughs? Could you look inside my soul and see how heavy my heart is but, how empty inside I am at the same time? Could you read my eyes and tell I cry four days and nights a week? Could you read my mind and tell I lost it? Could you feel my spirit and tell my heart died?

No y'all can't see this so, cut the judgement. I'm a twenty year old who hasn't seen peace in my life. Could you imagine how it is to battle all these things at once? Can you program your mind to imagine being in the situation with all this going on? They say the mind is a terrible thing the waste but, what do you do when its gone to another planet? Sometimes I'm my own worse enemy because my memory is too good and the memories add fuel to all the emotions my heart knows. At the end of the day I'm fighting something that can't be fought once again after all these years.