Couldn'T Come Back Poem by Kevin Carney

I am waiting for the sun to rise…
I fear it cannot come soon enough.
Waiting for the warmth to come back to me.
Never have I been so cold…
I wish we could build a fire…
Somehow we lost the flame along the way.
I wish I could take time back.
I could do it so differently.
I wish I could rebuild myself…
So far I have fallen, maybe it’s too late.
Somewhere I have lost my wings…
I wish I could have seen the dreams I had…
So slowly vanishing with the passing days.
Hoping they would work out in time.
Only to see hope turn to dust…
Really though, I should have known better.
I’ve endured the storms of reason…
I’ve suffered the winds of change…
Trying ever so hard to hold on to what couldn’t be….
Maybe it was just not right…
Too expect that much…
Taking it to the end of time.
Only to fall short in the end.
Gambling on it all over these few short years…
Giving my heart and soul to you.
Reading, it all and losing it all…
All in one fleeting moment of time…
The distance you have given me…
Now it’s time for me to shed some tears…
The time has changed.
Ironic it might be…
I have seen the light.
Knowing that I couldn’t come back.
Always asking myself where should I be?