Cover Poem by Jade Leven

the afternoon sun holds my fascination
and I can't focus on you
how good of it to do that for me
but it dries up the water
the October rain
all that made me smile
and you're what I can't see

there's no life in anything
the wind doesn't exist
what ashes of our laughter remain
I wouldn't recognize through all of this

my mind curses the silence
too hard to hear, just like you
and I cover my ears
like you cover the truth
what a shame

the smell of this dust,
it makes me feel so sick
we live like this
how do we survive?
it eats away at the core of the light
that keeps us up and walking
it makes my blood run cold
until I ask if I'm even alive

I wonder what everything means
are they signs or are they just there?
if omens were written in my skin
I wouldn't notice, wouldn't care

and I see the danger in the world
the violence and the dark
so I cover my eyes
like you cover my broken heart
what a shame

you hide the evidence
that you accidentally hurt me
you didn't mean to,
so you lie and say you love me
I know you don't

you don't want me to feel hatred
but I won't

can you please stop
trying to cover everything
these fake compliments
they won't fix anything
I appreciate
you trying to clear this up
but insignificant smiles
just won't be enough

you left your mark on me already
there's so many things I've had enough of
so I cover my good dreams of you
like we both cover our love

what a shame