Coward Poem by JennyLynn Lavoie

I live my life by what other people think of me,
I wait to be judged and always seek there approval I’m a coward that way.

I hide behind baggy cloths and thick skin,
building walls and buriers blocking the way to my fragile sole and hallowed heart.

I look down upon myself as if I were nothing, Just a useless unwanted being.
I act as if I’m strong that I can take on the world, but yet inside my body trembles, Fear sets in and sadness takes over.

I’m lost and drowning in a sea of self petty hating every inch of what makes me me.
I’m sickened at the thought that some one could actually love me,
What is there to love other then a body covered by a well protected mask that is not often removed.

I start things but never finish I’m weak that way, I’d rather be a quitter then admit I tried but could not suceed.
I let negativity rule me feeling unworthy of any positive influences.

When I look at myself I see hate rage defeat, imbedding itself into the core of my every thought.
I lack understanding and miss lead the truth, undermining what ever it takes to keep me from being submerged under a blanket of lies.

My eyes see the truth but my walls and buriers just wont budge, I wear a well protected mask to hide behind
Because the truth is I’m afraid of what all see, what life is like to live for me and only me.