Despised By All, Pitied By None Poem by Alison Mujati

Despised by all, pitied by none

Who am I?
As if I do not have a name
It is like I do not know mine.
Who regards my selfhood?
A creature of no name

They treat me like an animal
And anticipate my giggle in jubilation.
When I moan, nobody daresay nothing
Feeling low, they must know.
It feels like I respond to every question
As long as it is from them.
If it is from me, either an answer that breaks a bone,
Or no word at all.

Doing bad, they spat upon me,
All from the word, I cannot bear
To lashes, I bear daily
I carry sore skin and emotional scars.
Let it rain in my sorrow,
Torrens of joy may come too.
No mood changes but same old characteristics.

They care for my mistakes
I carry the stone in my heart to infinity.
it is easy to forget morality.
Alone, I suffer torture
My tears relieve their burdened hearts,
Tasting sweetness of sugar,
I'm bitter on salt to their tongues
Only I can suffer attitudes of their strategies.

Still human, searching for a scarce spirit of joy
Still, human, spasms of pain hurt too
I Wonder why they mock my troubles.

Kill all love in me,
Expect my smile,
Get it but trust deception
A grin mistook for a smile,
Suffering an errand that will last until second life
Yours despise and not at all pity has utterly let me down.