Laurie Pilner

Do You Hate Me When - Poem by Laurie Pilner

Do you hate what makes me different
The way I don't conform
My views of the world
So different from the norm

Do you hate the fact I'm fearful
Never sure of what is safe
My past has been a scary one
Living hypervigilent is such a waste

Do you hate it when I'm angry
Forgiveness has yet to come
Control is not always possible
Buried deep the angers from

Do you hate me for mistakes I've made
I've truly tried my best
No one can achieve perfection
Please think of me no less

Do you hate when I withdraw from from you
Push hard for you to go
Breakdown and cry that I need you
And pray you love me so.

Poet's Notes about The Poem

This poem is the expression of the pain, fear, and stigma experienced by one with borderline personality disorder (BPD) . Those with BPD, have very volatile anger, unstable relationships and push people away for fear of being abandoned. A belief of 'if I leave you it will hurt less than you leaving me'. It is a painful, fearful existence ending in loneliness, reckless, and impulsive behaviours.

Comments about Do You Hate Me When by Laurie Pilner

  • Kelvin Owusu (8/10/2012 2:40:00 AM)

    this is great work a good read keep up the good work (Report) Reply

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Poem Submitted: Thursday, August 9, 2012

Poem Edited: Thursday, August 9, 2012

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