Don'T Believe Poem by Lyrael Myrna

Don’t believe that everything will be ok
They say- they say that tomorrow is just another day
Go on and smile but don’t pray
Just because they say everything will be ok

Through my life
I have seen great things
Great not necessarily good
I have punished myself
Believed in Life
To work hard
To make an effort
I forgot about the children
Forgot about my dreams
Forgotten who my family are
Everything it seems
And I find it kind of frightening
That I’m just so misunderstood
That death is lying
on the palm of my own hand
And I always knew it would

You see when you come to be my age
You think a little less
And you dream a little less
And for God- well he’s abandoned me
So stuff the “religious freaks”
They’re so blind to think they “see”
So I return to my mistrust
Why these people get to me
Why I am slowly dying
Why I am wanting to be free
I feel bitter and so cold
I think I’ve always been
Not a day since I was six
Was my life ever serene

You see when someone tells you
Over and Over again
That you’re going to make it through
And you never really do
You learn to stop trying
People say “Poor pathetic you! ”
Well stuff it all
I don’t believe

God. I’m scared.