Don`t Know, , Till When... Poem by hazem al jaber

don`t know, how to think..
or how to live...
or what to do...
feel like i live without goal...
without aim...
and the unknown future, which is exhaust me..
grin his teeth's to me, ..why? ?
sadness killing my heart, and mind too..
and the tears dig my cheek...
and the pains wring my chest....

i must know from the first,
that, the life will not give me, what i want...
so, , ,
why i dreamed, , , ? ? ?
and why my dreams become more,
and more than i can...
and why i build my hopes, , why? ? ?
all my life, looked for the happiness..
but, only what i found, the sadness and the pains...
all my life, searched about my dreams..
but only found, the nightmare dreams..
all my life, searched for the peace of my mind, ,
but, only found the pains and the bitter`s afraid..
for how long..? ?
o my sadly days, , and my poor life..? ?
till when..? ?
till when? ?