Drowning In Grief Chokeing In Pride Poem by Silence Dogood

My heart is weak.
But I am strong.
This problem of mine.
Was two years long.

It's made me sad.
Reaped body and mind.
Filled me with sorrows.
Made me cool and unkind.

Its the life that I've led.
That's brought this on me.
The problems of mine.
My greatest disease.

I try to erase the thoughts.
So that I can forget.
Leave behind all mistakes.
And past regrets.

But it's not always possible.
When they come back full force.
And it's then I feel lost.
On an unwritten course.

I'm moving in circles.
Slowly going insane.
Any chance for true happiness.
Has been ravaged by pain.

When I tell though I smile.
With tears in my eyes.
It's my greatest falsehood.
And one of my lies.

But I'm not alone.
Im one of many in a crowd.
With tiny little voices.
That together speak loud.

But still I whisper in secret.
So not many will know.
By looking at me.
This problem doesnt show.

But there it is hidden.
Behind ever word spoken.
in my grief I lay drowning.
In my pride I stand choke'in

For I wish to stay strong.
When others crumble apart.
For the only thing weak.
Is my ill fitting heart.