Failing To Accomplish Poem by michael billiot

I've tried so hard so many times
But all I feel is a lack of heart inside
Why am I alone why is no one home
Why am I so cold why am I not bold
I give it all my best yet in the end still fail the test
Same test they've been giving all the rest
I don't know if I can lie to myself anymore
I just want to pass and say no more
I'm done I quit I don't know if I can handle it
Another defeat another destructive
Loss like that I just don't know
Where to grow where to sow
Where I can be alone cause in my home
Thousands of people roam
Yet when I try to talk they're silent as stone
I'm completely surrounded by other souls
Yet they make me feel so down so low
That I just feel like an invisible ghost
When they look at me then look away I hate the most
Because I know they know I'm here
Yet I'm so full of fear
I don't dare speak a word
I feel so alone so absurd
Can some one help me out please?
I'm on my knees crying take these things
These possessions of mine so I can maybe
Not feel so lonely not so crazy