Father Poem by Ajmacia McQueen

Father
Some one I barely know
Some one that barely shows...
His affection of how he feels about me
Some one I feel who barely cares of how I feel....Wait let me stop being poetic and keep it real!
I feel I barely have a father, you know?
The man you go to when your mom is bugging
But I feel he is just a man that I know and that's all. People tell me to respect that man but why?
Does that man respect when I felt abandoned while he was going half on a baby? ...No!
Does that man pick up a phone and call? ...No!
Does that man know how I felt when I felt unwanted and tried to find that feeling through my mother and brothers? ...No.
Charles is what I call him because he acts like a familiar face and not a father. I gave up trying to make him treat me like I exist when I feel like I don't. I should light when I hear his name but I don't.
When I call you Daddy!
All I can remember is how you wasn't there when I needed you the most, or how you wasn't there when I was hurting, or how you wasn't there when I really needed a friend.
A familiar face is what you will always be...
But a father...Thats what you have to show and what I would have to see.