Filled With... Poem by Eli Unknown

i shall drink to forget and smoke to remember
the sweet smell of September
i am broken inside
yet my back bone hides
the frail little girl balled up inside of me
knowing herstory and the ones still untold
it can not be contained - we are but a grain
of sand on the beach
and what's next that we will reach
continues to play again and again in my mind
the battle inside of me
well crafted artillery
keeping me out of heavens gate
silent so long it is too late
for all this time i needed you
denied from dreams
only to live out the nightmares
stay strong if you wanna make it out of here
aborted by the world
striking over and again
there is no room for love
the pain settles in
the only mouth to feed is the one that stays silent
opened to only feel the violence
how can you think of love
when all you know is pain
my tears dropp lifelines
mend my broken soul
can i stay whole