Going through what I went through I use to think about how my life sucks,
Wondering if in relationships I’ll ever have luck.
Then I started talking to this guy I was introduced to by a friend,
Hoping my broken heart would mend.
We started out talking through e-mail,
Thinking if we started to get close to soon it would fail.
Then one day he gave me his number and told me to call,
When I got the nerve to dial my throat felt raw.
Then we started talking every day,
I felt so comfortable talking to him that I never ran out of things to say.
Then one day he said he wanted to meet,
I got really nervous and scared again but didn’t miss a beat.
He picked me up and took me to his place,
The whole way there my heart was in a race.
Sitting and waiting anxiously in the car’s seat,
Afraid to look anywhere but down at my feet.
When we were at his place together and I still wouldn’t look at him, he grabbed my face and started kissing me,
With that first kiss I realized I was holding back all the things I’ve been needing to see.
Right then I knew that I needed and wanted so much more,
I started to realize what it was that I was waiting for.
For someone who made me feel safe, sexy, and beautiful, like a woman should,
Making me feel everything that nobody else could.
That night I gave him my virginity, a special gift I can never take back,
Even if I could I wouldn’t take away anything that night that happened in the sack.
Feelin the heat from all the touching and kissing,
Realizing for the first time the fulfillment in my life was missing.
Every passionate moment being skin to skin,
Wondering how something so special could be a sin.
Wondering how something that felt so right could wrong,
No matter what my memories and feelings of that night will stay strong.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.