My desires for him have always been strong,
However inside,
I’ve known it is wrong.
I have tried for years to ignore my heart,
But the feelings within me,
Refuse to depart.
He wasn’t mine - It wasn’t right,
He was tied to another,
I should reject him outright.
Then one night he came to me,
Looked into my eyes,
So confidently.
‘I want to kiss you’ he turned and said,
I looked right at him,
My pulse just sped.
He took my hand then led me away,
Whilst in my head,
I began to pray.
‘I know dear Lord I must not carry on,
But I have craved this man,
For far too long’.
He leaned forward then caressed my face,
Kissed my mouth,
I felt disgrace.
His lips felt warm, the kiss so pure,
Pleasure so intense,
The pain I’d endure.
He pulled me close, I could smell his skin,
I felt so high,
My head in a spin.
A hand in my hair, the other my waist,
How could I possibly
Stop this embrace?
I opted to forget all the things that I knew,
For a clandestine moment,
That seemed long overdue.
I thought this would stop just as it started,
But neither of us,
Has found the strength to be parted.
I don’t want these meetings, to come to rest
But 'us' being together,
Can never be blessed.
I cannot condone this, my morals are loose,
These exploits are adulterous,
I have no excuse.
This must cease, since I know deep down,
These occasions of madness
Have repercussions profound.
But every time I really try to let go,
Something inside me,
Prevents me doing so.
Please Lord help, I’m unsure where to start,
I am a weak individual,
Without you guiding my heart.
Your spirit makes me strong, but I know I’ll cry,
When ending this liaison,
Saying ‘Goodbye’.
Camille, an honest and revealing write on a difficult subject! Extremelly well done! ! Brian
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I would like to translate this poem
i'm actually dating a married man and it really hard to let go when you want him so bad, and that your in love with him. Great poem. Keep up the good work