Forgetful Pain And Depression Poem by Elijah Reed

Last night I had a dream I came face to face with my depression.
He’s not a nice guy, he lives alone, and always feeding off of my aggression.
I dreamed that we were high, standing on a cloud prosession.
We sat and talked, he told me all about the things I hated
About myself and how my thoughts are always halfway faded.
He brought up feeling that I can’t remember.
The touch of lips on mine creating love and all emotions tender,
Yes, all those feelings I have for someone of another gender.
Depression knows it’s hard for me to comprehend
All of the feeling being returned from the other end
Of a relationship that I seem to never really be in.
Because I never understand what there’s to love under my own skin.
I’m just a stupid loser always caught up with his past sin.
A guy who’s own brain won’t ever let him win.
It never lets me remember much
Because my pain gives off a forgetful touch.
And when I’ll think the pain is leaving,
It drops a huge load full and heaving.
Of all the things I thought I forgot how to understand
As if written in the beach, then kicked out of the sand.
And when it drops it on my heart, it stops for an hour.
It’s crushed by my own emotion, stacked up like a tower.
But when it’s over, understanding blooms like a beautiful flower.
And life no longer seems so sour.
Epiphany dawns, emotions awaken
I look forward on the path soon to be taken.
But in the back of my mind pain will cause me to forget all the feelings I fought so hard to remember.
And depression will rub it in my face.