If Only I Had Value Poem by Elijah Reed

As of now I'm through with all my being
Because the coward that I've made myself wants to end all that he's seeing
the torture that I put myself through just to care for a single person
the only one who wishes my situation will not further worsen
but I know that I will slowly loose my grip on life
and she will only look back at me filling me with strife
I left her speechless, left her scared
And talk to me she would not have dared.
I learned from then, the day I lost it
then beat my body with hit after solid hit
I know now it is not the answer
And that pain won't make it go by faster
But as of today I have no new solution
keeping me from purple skin pollution
the bruising deep, my knuckles tough
I'll never believe that I'm enough
Because of all I have to offer here
Is enough to make me disappear
out of here sight
I'm simply a blight
on her bright sunny day
She want's me to be something that I'm not
I wish I could be what she wants, I want it a whole aweful lot
But happiness isn't here for me, I'm just not worth it
It understood long ago that I'm hopeless.