Forgive And Forget Poem by Allysyn Bryant

Will I?
Can I?
Would I?
Could I?
Should I?
Probably, but I won’t.

Ran into him at the hardware store today. He looked worse then he’s been in years. Instantly I knew, he hasn’t gotten any sleep and has been working nonstop for days. For a moment I want to pull him close and tell him it’s alright, but I don’t. Instead I look into his face, I saw the light from his eyes has gone. His life has been hell. He’s been in a fight recently too. Faintly, I can still see a hint of a black eye and what was a cut on his lip. He’s lost for words, and embarrassed too, I can see. I gave him a quick hug and offered a smile. Then he stared at me and asked, “Don’t remember the date do you? ”
November 29th. Damn.
It’s been a year since he had proposed to me.
A year since I found out the truth.
A year since I walked away.
Damn, he had to ask.

Will I ever forget? Forgive? Never.
Can I forget? If he’ll let me. Forgive? Not in this lifetime.
Would I forget? Yes, if I had the choice. Forgive? I don’t know.
Could I forget? Forgive? No…I don’t think I could.
Should I? Probably, but I won’t.

She was walking her dog when I saw her today. Sitting at the duck I was, I waved. She came over. We talked for a while since we have last. When she mentions that her birthday is in a month, I knew, she’s changed. Not the same person I use to call my best friend. It’s sad, really. And as she walks away I ask myself.

Will I ever call her my best friend again?
Can I let go of all the bad times and be friends again?
Would I even be able to?
Could I be that person again?
Should I? Probably, but I won’t.

November 29,2008