Gas And Fire Poem by Victor Aguilar

I did 'love you, ' 'missed you, '
'want to? ' 'Can I kiss you? '

Those same old responses from years pasts.
Gaslighting until I'm without gas.
I tried, cried, and needed a 'car ride.'

I fought, wanted, believed you. 'Why were you lying? '
'I don't hate you.' 'Promise.' 'Then why'd you stop trying? '
I won't be the same person as before.
'I can't, ' 'I won't, ' 'I don't know him anymore.'

All these words together are just comparisons.
Like mixing proteins: Fibroin and Sericin.
Instead of being silk: so soft, so warm, 'sleep fuel! '
We were Gas and Fire, too hot, never cool.

You said many things. 'I promise, ' the main staple.
You broke them when you left me on a read label.

'I'm sorry I keep trying.' 'I don't know where to start.'
Most days feel like I'm lying to fix my heart.