Get Away Poem by Joanne Kearsey

I know I can't run from it all as it will always just follow me,
Even if I did I wouldn't get too far either way,
I'm always ready to fight if pushed,
But it's not in my nature to hurt others, but I don't do things half ways.

I shouldn't have to apologise for the way I live my life,
And yet people feel the need to shame me for every little thing I do,
It's not their hardships that have brought me to this place,
I'm not you kind of person, and that's ok, it's me that's needed to push through.

But why should I have to push through anything?
Why is it me that has to live through blinding and crippling pain?
Why do I have to watch those around me wither and fade away?
I know it will have to be, but I don't want to be the last one to remain alone.

I'm a very contradictory person, I'm stronger than I give myself credit for,
And yet I am readyto collapse at any given moment,
I have to remind myself tojust breathe and take each moment as it comes,
And it sometmies comes like a fist to my face as punishment.