God Save Me. Poem by Glenn Shriner

God save me. By Glenn Shriner
I often look up to the sky and it puts me at ease, it's like when I'm sleeping I am at peace.
Every day is a struggle for someone like me, I try to fight it for the sake of my family.
At times it scares me I have no control, depression has me I cock the pistol.
It sits in my lap as I sit and cry, this seems to be the way out just let me die.
A knock at door saves me once more, that would have been my kids to find me on the floor.
Please God save me from me, I try to be a good father and fit in society,
But this depression has control over me, even as a teen the struggle was real, I swallowed a handful of someone else's pill.
Sis, I heard you scream as I blacked out, I thought this was it without a doubt.
I was looking to the sky as I fade away, only to be awoken to fight another day.
Please God save me from me as I pray, please god take me so it don't have to end this way.
A coward who did not care about his family is what people will say, please give my kids the strength and let them know they will be ok, tell them daddy was sick and had to go away.
Please my beautiful children do not stand over me and weep, for I am at peace as I lay here and sleep.
My final resting place here I lay, left behind is my body my spirit got away, into the clouds of that peaceful sky, stop crying children daddy did not die.
I have joined my mom and your aunt is here too, heaven is not that far away I'm looking over all of you.
I will see you again after I pay for my sin, god will forgive me and let me back in, Until we meet again, look no farther than the peaceful sky, remember my body is gone but my spirit did not die.