God Tested, I Failed, He Forgave Poem by Jeremy Willson

So many sleepless nights spent
And all the promises unkept
I couldn't stand to get out of bed
I wanted to forget what was said
Wash away all the pain like it was dirt
But it'd never clean the place where I was hurt
Wipe the sadness from my eyes
Deafen my ears to all the lies
If only I hadn't been so dumb
I would never have come
To that place so low
I didn't want to be alive so
I took out the hate on myself like an idiot
And left my mouth shut
Bottled up the anguish and regret
Forgot how God had always blessed
Cursed Him and everyone else
While people heard nothing I heard yells
From within myself growing louder
My sight began to blur
Until I saw and felt absolutely nothing anymore
Then I fell on my face upon the floor
Cried and asked for forgiveness
I had failed everyone of the Lord's tests
And I had failed myself too
But God saw my broken heart and repaired it like new