Haba Father! Where Is Your Face? Poem by Gold Trybes

Open the eyes of my understanding and let me see You, Lord. There are a lot of things I am confused about. I ask questions within me daily. Questions I have no answers for. I have tried to rationalize the things that happen to me. I have tried to give a reason for every fall but I realize my folly in misunderstanding that your ways aren't my ways. I don't know whatever happened to me. I used to cherish the things of God but lately, it just seems like I have lost that flair. I don't attend church services like I used to. I don't pray like I should. I trust God but I don't put my trust into actions. It's as if am waiting for some manner from Heaven to make things happen for me. Lord, have and show mercy upon me. I am giving in slowly. My sins from my past and present are slowly catching in on me. How long until you save me Lord? How long will you wait and watch me put myself on this path of self destruction before you save me?

I am a fool for thinking I can do this all alone. I am a fool for thinking I don't need you. I am a fool for thinking all my problems are just going to fizzle out without praying. I am a fool for knowing what the truth is and not applying it. I have come to crossroads, Lord. I need you. I need your help. I need your grace; I need the saving strength of your right hand. I know very vividly that this isn't what you planned for me, for my life. I know without a doubt that you have riches and treasures stored up for me. Pray, how do I come to your reckoning? How do I come back to where am supposed to be? What must I do to revoke your ire away from me? Lord, from deep within, I ask, I pray, save me from myself! Take my life and mold it into the shape and form you want.

My life isn't my own, it's Yours Lord, it belongs to you. Therefore, Lord, help me! Like a child looks up to his Father's eyes, I am looking up to you to help me, to save me. I need you more than at any time in my life. I need you to answer the raging questions on my mind. I need you to talk to me and give me a discerning spirit to comprehend your words. I need to hear from you. Talk to Your servant, Lord. Your servant is desperate to hear from you. I am nothing without you, and in you alone does my joy reside. In you alone is my victory. In You alone can I find the answers to the questions pondering on my mind.. How long more will I wait…