Have You Ever Poem by Marilyn Stoecker

Have you ever done something so stupid
that when it's done you can't believe what you did?
It makes you think
How could you have done that?
Why would you have done that?
It was stupid and rash dicision..
It has changed me in so many ways
Im not the same..
You may think that I am
But if you knew me for real you would think something
Something that isnt true..
Something that Hurts to hear the rumors being spread.
Something so bad that when you hear people talking
You know It's about you.
She said things and people have even asked me about it
But it's a lie
The Biggest lie I've ever heard
And it hurts to know people believe it..
Im hurting in so many ways
I've changed so much over the last two years
I feel so different..
Almost as if it happened over night.
I can only wish this
because the days continue to go on while my heart stays frozen in time
Everything I knew is gone
And now I ask
Have You ever
done something so stupid it makes you wonder
Why would you do that?
Did I really not know what would happen?
Did I really think she was my friend?
No.
I've let her in and she has broken everything that I am
And I feel like a complete and total idiot
How could I have let her get in between us?
You meant so much to me
And even more then I could see
It was all my stupidity.
I can say that it wasn't her fault but that would be a lie
She says she didnt even know but it was her just wanting you to let go
To let go of all that we had
Is she worth all of this?
I'm beating myself up because of what she did
I shouldnt be thinking what im thinking
I shouldnt let her destroy who i really am
And I shouldn't change what happened because this is what is
And now I ask again.
Have you ever
Done something so stupid..
That you lose yourself in the middle of it all?

well I have