Heart's Confusion Poem by May N

I look to my left and i look to my right
i see the future in front of my eyes
yet this thing that beats so naturally inside me
is torn both ways for the love and passion
that yearns inside each person so.

i see both happiness and love
in which both could give and provide
but my heart is split
i cannot decide

this blasted organ, my heart
in which keeps me alive
complicates my emotions and desires
where my head is left blank
and life does what it wants with me

This complication
it haunts me every day and night
as i close my eyes and picture who i could be with
but i cannot put a face to my love

as i sit here alone and think
i am left wondering what could be
if i choose one person...
what could my life be with the other?

i want to banish all complications
to banish all problems
and look up at the stars and forget
just to forget...but not completely

i know that whatever my choice is
whoever i choose to be mine
i will love them both
with great passion and desire
i will always have feelings for the one that couldn't be