Hidden Truths Poem by Lesa MRK

Many times I cried for you in the past,
For your pain and worries,
And the sadness that forever lasts.
We both have lived the same nightmare,
Yet perceived it in different ways.
There are so many feelings yet hidden,
We are still too afraid to say.
We tried to read the lies of long ago,
Adopt them as our life.
Now can we let go of the pain,
That rips through us like a knife?
I long to shut my eyes to the light,
But I can no longer bury the truth-
Our world was not as we wanted,
Our dreams never of any worth,
Sometimes I seem so all alone,
Yet you are always there.
I must only see your face,
To help me calm the eternal fear;
The fear of never having.
What others have taken for granted;
Wanting love so unconditional,
That heartache has not tainted.
Can we find the peace,
The apologies to set us free?
Or must we go on forever hurting,
Not opening our eyes to see?

(4/9/90)